Friday, July 23, 2010

I've said it before...

And I'll say it again. Why is it that 9 months of pregnancy drags on... and on... (and in my case) on and on, but as soon as they come out days turn into months and before you know it your newborn is three and your newest newborn is 4-almost 5 months old. With Lander it was saddening that it happened so fast, but honestly, he was a difficult baby, he never slept, he cried a lot and he had horrible allergies and I think the most frustrating thing in the whole world is when your child HAS a problem but no one can tell you exactly what it is, and when young children have allergies the best they can ever tell you is "wait it out and he will probably outgrow it" which he did... Kellan however, is angel baby, he is happy all the time, he pretty much sleeps through the night he loves to be cuddled-thats pretty much the only thing thats a "problem" with him, he wants to be held and loved all the time... so his rapid growth has put me into a tail spin... I can't stop panicing over the fact that he is growing sooooo fast. Its probably compiled with the fact that we will most likely only have one more child and I will be done with the baby stage forever. Why is this so wonderful for men? they can't WAIT until theyre older, I close my eyes and see my sons towering over me as teenager's and I literally feel like I cannot breath. I hope I get over this soon so I don't pass on my neurosis to my poor children, but its hard, everyday I spent with them is bittersweet and I just wish I could hit pause and have time to compose myself.


So... I am going to compose a list of all the wonderful things I can do with my big boys...


*We will be able to go on family vacations


*I can watch them get involved in sports or any activity's they want


*I can have more time to do things I like and not be a maid/human milk bar for the rest of my life... (trying to convince myself this is good :)


*The boys will be able to help me and do fun crafts




ugh I just pray that when we have our next baby I get that "I'm done feeling" cuz right now I don't feel it... or that they baby has colic lol just kidding.




My big babies..





Lander- 3 years

Kellan- 4 months